Home.
I looked up the word 'home' in French, because well, why not! And it came up with a bunch of different words with various categories, but none of them seemed to fit the imagery that comes to my mind when I think of that four letter word.
Home is more than a word. It's more than a place or a building. It's people. It's family. It's getting lost in the monotony. It's the agreed upon silent good morning's. It's finding pleasure in the simple things. It's big spoonfuls of peanut butter. It's the laughter from an inside joke. It's deep late night conversations with kindred spirits; your bosom friends. It's bundling up in your favorite blanket to keep out the Michigan cold that now don't seem much of a bother at all. It's laughter in silly things. It's wholeheartedly singing with reckless abandon. It's knowing someone's quirks and them knowing yours. It's belonging to someone. It's that someone belonging to you. I miss my home, darling.
Last night I had a deep sense of longing for the place I call home. Then I came to the realization that this... this world, is not our home. Even if I could hop on the next flight out of here, I still wouldn't be completely happy or fulfilled upon meeting my desire and longing for that place. The truth of the matter is even though there is a deep love for my earthly home, I can't find wholeness in it, nor will I find true satisfaction from anything here. Except Christ. He is the one thing that truly satisfies. That is why I can say that I am at peace about being here in Southern France even in the midst of homesickness. God has called me to be here to serve a family that is obeying God's call for their lives as missionaries to the lost. Therefore, I will obey God's call and I will obey with joy, for true joy can only be found in obedience to my Savior.
For here we have no lasting city, but we seek the city that is to come. | Hebrews 13:14 ESV
Then we who are alive, who are left, will be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air, and so we will always be with the Lord. Therefore encourage one another with these words. | 1 Thessalonians 4:17-18 ESV
So we are always of good courage. We know that while we are at home in the body we are away from the Lord, for we walk by faith, not by sight. Yes, we are of good courage, and we would rather be away from the body and at home with the Lord. So whether we are at home or away, we make it our aim to please him. | 2 Corinthians 5:6-9 ESV
Okay, but the struggle is still so totally there..... It is difficult not to feel a tad homesick when you've got the best family, friends, and church family imaginable at home. It's a good thing. I am so blessed. God is here to help me overcome and change my heart and my desires... I want to live in light of eternity.
xoxo,
colette
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